genting...

haha...it had been ages ago since i blog...

well lets see...many of my friends blog when they get emotional or when they get sad...
well...i admit this is the truth and the fact lo...ppl usually blog when they are unhappy...i experience before the feeling having nobody to talk to or juz that i dunno who to talk to...but feel to express myself...

so it can be considered a good sign that after so many months i din blog dy...well even today i dun blog because i'm sad or emotional...juz too bored...

lets see...
me and my bf...
it had been three months plus for us being together...actually last time i had a thought that my relation with my first bf lasted for one month...my second one lasted for two months...so when i started with my third bf...i had actually told him that i'm worried its like a spell on me and my third relation will last for three months...
well...whether the spell is working or not i really have no idea at all...i used to be very worried and scared before it reached the third month...but after all i realized no point worrying about it as i wun get any benefit from it...

september...
lets see...this month...can be very special...well...i'm happy la...the month of my birth k...
exclude the hardwork needed to be sacrifice for the final exam for my first sem...but i do have fun too...maybe not fun...haha...the feeling of studying and working hard together with my housemates and halfway through the midnight suddenly go to my housemate room ask questions or help...or juz to disturb see they all read till where...or listening to their complain of the noise pollution created by my other 5 housemates...haha...seriously they got so fed up lo...becz they are the hardworking type...hehe...then also...i dun have to have my dinner alone...often go out for dinner with meiyen they all...though kamwoh always call me to call him out for dinner together if i'm alone...but i juz dun understand why i wun do it...seriously it can be pretty depressing to have meals alone sometimes... yet at times...i still enjoy the feel of being emo...kakaz...ok...i know i'm odd...

besides that the night we spend playing tanglung one week before the exam..though abit lame...i still appreciate it...i like crowd at times...i enjoy the night we study together at meiyen's house before the final paper on thursday-accounts...i like the feel to study like this...having accompany...at least enjoy the time being together...

then finally finish my examination...hurrayyy...holiday...
and there is one problem that burden me throughout the exam week and the preparation for exam week...which is the plan to meet my bf at genting...its not easy k...so many plan fail before the last one succeed...

k...on 18th night after exam our class have bbq party...after feasting...me and ming fei were presented with a cake...if i have not mistaken...i think is tiramisu cake...haha...thks to my classmates o for the early celebration of my birthday...

on the 19th night...i went to my cousin bro's house...as my relatives from australia came bec...then moonkim meiyen they all went to lana...actually i knew they wanna celebrate my birthday as i'm going to genting on the 20th...really sorry...i ended being so late...almost twelve and went there with my sisters and cousins smmore...sorry and thanks ya...

on 20th i went to pudu alone...then at first i thought will meet qi they all there...but ended up asking ppl around how to go to lrt station...walk all the way to rapid kl then sit lrt to titiwangsa...this is the first time i board a few public transport like that alone...haha...ok...not a few...two only...i know its so common for those who study at kl...klo...meet her at titiwangsa and three new friends-junjie, ah wang, 9long...nice to meet u all o...in the beginning the plan is to board bus to genting but ended up going to genting with taxi...klo...check in in a deluxe room with only me and qi a room and the other three guys one room...as standard room is full...one room rm190 man...haha...luckily the other two nitez my bf pays...

klo...after check in rest awhile we bought all park tickets then went for outdoor theme park at four...we played all the exciting games there...the pirate ship the first, followed with solero shot, the cyclone, the spinning chair, the train...though few...but we enjoyed...as we succeed to force...kla...should said..."tham"...those who are scared to play all these to play...haha...this is the first time also i see qi so brave play solero shot and cyclone man...dunno what happen to her...haha...last time no matter how hard we persuade her also she will never agree to play with us...the last time i come to genting with her is when we are form 3...that is also the last time i go to trip with her dy loo...haha...this time to genting again...

then the next day...lolz...go and meet my bf at starbucks coffee...he called to phone him before i go find him so that he will be prepared...haha...at first i wanna do that but i din at last...he got a shock...lolz...then we went to find qi they all at mcd...on the way there...his hand accidentally knocked over my hand...he got so embarrassed...and put his hand in the pocket...haha...so funny...but one thing i'm really abit mad lo...he is so busy on call when at mcd...when i'm having lunch or breakfast with qi they all...though i know i shouldn't be angry as he is planning a big business that his dad let him talk to the client all on him alone for the first time...he is so happy when he succeed but later keep apologize when he knows i'm angry...haha...very bad leh...

before i went to meet my bf, i went shopping with qi...haha...so long din shop together with her dy...klo...after that...accompany them to the skyway...then they went bec dy...i'm all alone with my bf...we went to shop for clothes...he bought me two shirts...padini...hehe...then we check in...
at first he wants me to continue to shop...i'm tired u know...but i still says okla...u bathe first...but after he bathed...i'm asleep...hehe...sorry lo...stupid him...snap my photo when i'm sleeping...when he wake me up...very sweet lo...cause when at kampar...i used to be awake by his call every morning before school...haha...and now finally he realize how lazy i can be...i forget how long he needs to really make me wake up and clean myself before we went out again...haha...we went window shopping if i have not mistaken...then went for a nite movie at 1.30am...we watch money not enough 2...haha...we are holding hands all the while till in the end the touching parts i let go his hand...thought actually i'm hoping that he will take my hand and hold it...but he din...yet he is worried...i know he is thinking whats wrong with me...cause i realize he is looking at me not the screen...but i pretend i dunno...wahaha...when we came out...he keep asks me why...but i din answer...so we walk all the way bec to the room lo...haha...i got sensitive la...becz the ending part of the movie is so sad man...but i din cry...juz let my tears flood in my eyes...

the second day ah...he actually went out for window shopping one round then only come bec to wake me up..."cha dou"...i know i'm lazy...we din go to any theme park this few days together with him...that day walk around only la...went for movie at 6pm and 1.30am...haha...i knew i said to him before i love watching movie at the cinema and had been a long time ago i din watch...kakaz...i even watch the mirror twice...by the way...this is the first time i shout in the cinema when i watch the mirror with qi they all...before we went in...i still tell her dun shout ah in the cinema...ended up i shout instead of her...so embarrassing...

klo...third day is the day we have to tell each other goodbye not knowing when only will we meet again...sit cabel car go down the hill...i can see that he really dun feel to let me go...then we sit taxi from the half hill to pudu...because he is worried that my mum will scold me cause its late...
he hold my hand tight all the way to pudu...while i sleep on his shoulder...hehe...then i board bus bec to ti at 3.30pm...then in the bus after he went away to buy his bus ticket back only I know that when he watched I searched for seat in the bus…he went so emotional that he almost cry…the difference between the time when we reached pudu and I went to board another bus is only half an hour…I want it fast enough so that I wun have enough time to think so much and got so emotional till I dun feel to leave him…I knew I will if I have longer time…
this is becz when we are at genting all this while…he is there for me 24hours whenever I need him…and my hand is always that cold while his hand is always that warm…though his hand is rough…I knew he had worked hard through this rough hand… I knew sometimes he feel to give up… he had been telling me for thousand of times how happy he is now with me… and I knew and believed that he can be trusted… even in the future I might regret believing him after we happen to break up… that is my future problem… I have no energy to care that much now… cause I know no matter how unhappy I am now…I have him at my side to support me…
another point that make me feel that I am so self-concious is that I still cares that he can’t further his studies… I know I am bad… but I really hope he can do it… though he had told me seriously he cant… I promise him I will never ask again cz I dun wan to make him sad… yet in my heart… I haven give in…