friendship

how do we value things that we cant value...
i really dunno what to say lo...
suddenly my tears flow...
it had been years...
ever since i left segamat...
a place i had grown up to be a young teenage gal...
a place where i know what do love is...
a place where i enjoy myself with alot of activities...
climbing up the swing at qi's home and sitting on top of it looking around with qi...
and we used to be visiting each other house every thursday...where we do our homework then went out cycling and play...
love to sit on the swing in the playground and swing as high as i can...
cycling around with u tracking out where the uncle is to buy the jelly that i really missed nowadays...and i know u love to eat the satay stick...
i still remember standard six that time...
we sings a dunno what song and dance with our feet to the left and to the right along the corridor whenever we go to the toilet...
and u used to laugh when i made hana and thana (if i had not mistaken their name) quarrel... i touched the other fellow shoulder and the other will scold her thought that she is the one who touched her...and they will really quarrel...so funny...yet i enjoyed that...
we played tepung and water battled at the side of the toilet...
this memory unless i had already lost my memory or else i will never be able to forget it lo...
as i said...which i had already forgotten i had said this sentence before to qi...
when i checked out her msn blog on nov05...i discovered bec this sentence...
"xuen told me no matter how much we keep in touch...our relation won't be as good as now....cos we are already far apart from each other..... "
i dunno what to say...i remember the day be4 i left that night i went down to chaah...
on the way there my tears flow in the car...
on nov05 no matter how busy i am packing out stuffs be4 i left...i went out with u all...
we went to the gift shop...
actually be4 i left...i saw u all says goodbye to me...
i really dun feel to go but i have no choice..
there are alot more experience which i dunno how to explain in words...
i am not good in my speech neither am i good in my words...
but this is a true fact which make me sad (i get from ur march08 blog that i only discovered today):

"distance is a silent killer.. everyone knows it.. but i experienced it..
both of us try our very best to keep up with each other..
to keep in touch and update each other ..
but there's a gap...
a gap tat nobody can pull it near..
but i blif our friendship is there..
forever it will be..."

"speechless" again...emo~
it is not easy to accept that things around us will not last forever...